Cat Eyes and Lippy

A place for my girl thoughts and poetry

The Night

The only sound is
The continuous whistle of my right nostril
And the thick layer of living night
I fell a hundred times today
Outside of myself
And never once made a sound
I called you on a lifeline
And told you how today
Was just like yesterday
How dense the night inside myself is
How it almost never becomes day
You replied with a sigh
Not a give up breath
But the exhale of someone wishing to…

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Shadows

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My shadow is dark
My shadow is long and dark
With memories and heavy heavy
Baggage
Black with regrets and darkest from
Always remembering
Deeds that I’ve done
My shadow is chained to my ankles
Sewn into the depths of my soul
My ropy worn down shadow
Is filled with holes
And every now and again
I lose it in sunlight
But it is never long
Before I am reminded
That shadows never disappear
For long

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Miles have never felt so long

I walked all day long
Spent hours stepping
Pulling heels ahead of toes
Knowing you only came closer
With each miles traveled
By hands on the clock
So still I stepped
Dragging myself
Further and further
Taking only your distance
Into account
And when i became
Blistered and numb
With steps still ahead
I pulled myself to you
I willed myself towards you
With the strength of a thousand men
Because a love has never felt so sweet as yours
Because I have never felt more alive
Than when I am wrapped
So effortlessly in your arms

You are my favorite possession

You are mine and I am yours
Such statements are rarely proclaimed nowadays
But I am so vehemently positive
That I am in possession of your whole
Your lips and teeth and all that comes out
I catch you by handfuls
And mouthfuls
I grab hold of your hands
Your face
I take control of your hair
With the palm of my hand
You are mine
And when you were not
You didn’t belong to anyone
Not the way you belong to me

Goodbyes never last long enough

I slip into warmth
So gradually
The temperature hasn’t changed
You are always warmer
Than any heat I have felt
You are taking me home
Though I’ve decided long ago
That you are my destination
I leave the car and
Suddenly cold,
Completely aware
Like you turned the lights on
While I was asleep
I will forgive you
For leaving me here
Like I always do
But before i go
I will cling to you
Like the end of…

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2:30 PM

I have fought
Numerous battles
With my bed sheets
Just to find the daylight
Of a half empty day
Like today
When I could count
On one hand
My accomplishments
And leave you to worry
About what I’ll become
Tomorrow

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I am the luckiest girl

Tonight I will sleep with you
In the crook of my arm
In the space were my
Knees often reside
We will sleep like bears
Overlapping
In too small caves
In too big a bed
I need to be closer

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Thin

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We are paper
We have torn each others corners
No matter how hard we have tried
To keep each other clean
We are wrinkled
And sorry for it
We are cleaning up
Each other’s tears
We are sopping up words
Like they had drawn blood
We are paper thin
To each other’s hands
We are still trying to straighten
One another out
We are apologizing
For bent corners
For paper cuts
Like they were not
Just mistakes

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You are not me

I wish I could love me
The way that you love me
Because you do it so well
I wish I could want for myself
The things that you do
Because I need them
I know that I do
I just fear grasping them
In my hands
And not knowing what to do
I wish I could see myself
The way that you see me
When you tell me
I am strong
Because I confess
That I don’t believe you
I know that you are wrong
Because you are looking

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Driving

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I keep dreaming that I’m late
Every night
I fall asleep and miss the bus
I find a car of my own
Driving recklessly
And endlessly
Through twisty, turning streets
Only to inevitably find
That I am going
Way to fast
In the wrong direction

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