Cat Eyes and Lippy

A place for my girl thoughts and poetry

Thin

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We are paper
We have torn each others corners
No matter how hard we have tried
To keep each other clean
We are wrinkled
And sorry for it
We are cleaning up
Each other’s tears
We are sopping up words
Like they had drawn blood
We are paper thin
To each other’s hands
We are still trying to straighten
One another out
We are apologizing
For bent corners
For paper cuts
Like they were not
Just mistakes

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You are not me

I wish I could love me
The way that you love me
Because you do it so well
I wish I could want for myself
The things that you do
Because I need them
I know that I do
I just fear grasping them
In my hands
And not knowing what to do
I wish I could see myself
The way that you see me
When you tell me
I am strong
Because I confess
That I don’t believe you
I know that you are wrong
Because you are looking

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Driving

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I keep dreaming that I’m late
Every night
I fall asleep and miss the bus
I find a car of my own
Driving recklessly
And endlessly
Through twisty, turning streets
Only to inevitably find
That I am going
Way to fast
In the wrong direction

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Forgetting at needle point

I know that healing
Is supposed to be smooth
I can’t forget the way I was told
In so many words
To let go
Like muscle memory
We’re that easy to forget
My healing was not smooth
But sharp like forced goodbyes
For me it required
Replacing
But I found no solace in
Lullabies and declawed fingertips
I did however
Find myself under a needle
Under pressure on my skin
So closely related to
What I felt…

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An Adventure

We walked through
Old decrepit memories
Leaving snail trails through
Thick as hell
Dust and dirt
I held your hand because
It made you feel sad

You led me through greenery
I have only ever known
In fairy tales
Up stairs, on platforms
We stand triumphant
I show you imaginary
Nature beds

Nostalgic board walks
Lead us through
Winding stories
Under branches
I never knew existed
We find lonely flowers

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Searching

I am always trying to explain
How much I love you
I am always trying to crack this
Invisible code
And I am looking up new words
And I am sorting out new meanings
For the old ones
But nothing is making sense
Nothing is as pure, as concentrated
As the feeling I get
When you touch my lips
When you lose your guard
When you protest beautiful
To my overwhelming no
When three words don’t even begin
To…

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Poetry about the sun

I used to grow away from sunlight
Like the warmth would hurt
My sallow bones
Like those purest beams of gold
Would scorch my open soul
I used to hide away from warmth
Like darkness was a cloak
Against the wear and tear
Of being spoon fed gold
I used to shun myself from brightness
Like cold corners were enough
Under bed sheets not my own
I would close my eyes
Deep in stolen lust
I would shield…

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A Sunrise

You love me today
But can not guarantee
Tomorrow
Maybe because the days
Rise in black
And end in the same darkness
Maybe because you are no
Predictor or keeper
Of time
Because I am not
Clear as glass
Or hollow of tangles
Because hands are not
Puzzle pieces
They weather and change
With time
You cannot predict tomorrow
Like the weather
Or the promise everyday
Of sunrise
You cannot be blamed
For not…

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Pain Relief

I think about you all of the time
And that is not poetry
You are not poetry
You are impossible
To put into words
Over and over
I cannot believe how often
You are in my head
You infiltrate my mind
Like you were first to have it
And what I don’t quite get
Is the way you slip right past
The dark feelings and woe
You are my pain reliever

Stars

My hands kept reaching
And grasping all the wrong things
I held shards of glass to my chest
Like teddy bears
And you were the only one
To ever tell me
That those shiny things
Weren’t stars
And replace them
With what really were
Instead of just
Letting me know