Cat Eyes and Lippy

A place for my girl thoughts and poetry

Goodbyes never last long enough

I slip into warmth
So gradually
The temperature hasn’t changed
You are always warmer
Than any heat I have felt
You are taking me home
Though I’ve decided long ago
That you are my destination
I leave the car and
Suddenly cold,
Completely aware
Like you turned the lights on
While I was asleep
I will forgive you
For leaving me here
Like I always do
But before i go
I will cling to you
Like the end of…

View On WordPress

2:30 PM

I have fought
Numerous battles
With my bed sheets
Just to find the daylight
Of a half empty day
Like today
When I could count
On one hand
My accomplishments
And leave you to worry
About what I’ll become
Tomorrow

View On WordPress

I am the luckiest girl

Tonight I will sleep with you
In the crook of my arm
In the space were my
Knees often reside
We will sleep like bears
Overlapping
In too small caves
In too big a bed
I need to be closer

View On WordPress

Thin

Thin http://wp.me/s42dtU-thin

We are paper
We have torn each others corners
No matter how hard we have tried
To keep each other clean
We are wrinkled
And sorry for it
We are cleaning up
Each other’s tears
We are sopping up words
Like they had drawn blood
We are paper thin
To each other’s hands
We are still trying to straighten
One another out
We are apologizing
For bent corners
For paper cuts
Like they were not
Just mistakes

View On WordPress

You are not me

I wish I could love me
The way that you love me
Because you do it so well
I wish I could want for myself
The things that you do
Because I need them
I know that I do
I just fear grasping them
In my hands
And not knowing what to do
I wish I could see myself
The way that you see me
When you tell me
I am strong
Because I confess
That I don’t believe you
I know that you are wrong
Because you are looking

View On WordPress

Driving

Driving http://wp.me/s42dtU-driving

I keep dreaming that I’m late
Every night
I fall asleep and miss the bus
I find a car of my own
Driving recklessly
And endlessly
Through twisty, turning streets
Only to inevitably find
That I am going
Way to fast
In the wrong direction

View On WordPress

Forgetting at needle point

I know that healing
Is supposed to be smooth
I can’t forget the way I was told
In so many words
To let go
Like muscle memory
We’re that easy to forget
My healing was not smooth
But sharp like forced goodbyes
For me it required
Replacing
But I found no solace in
Lullabies and declawed fingertips
I did however
Find myself under a needle
Under pressure on my skin
So closely related to
What I felt…

View On WordPress

An Adventure

We walked through
Old decrepit memories
Leaving snail trails through
Thick as hell
Dust and dirt
I held your hand because
It made you feel sad

You led me through greenery
I have only ever known
In fairy tales
Up stairs, on platforms
We stand triumphant
I show you imaginary
Nature beds

Nostalgic board walks
Lead us through
Winding stories
Under branches
I never knew existed
We find lonely flowers

View On WordPress

Searching

I am always trying to explain
How much I love you
I am always trying to crack this
Invisible code
And I am looking up new words
And I am sorting out new meanings
For the old ones
But nothing is making sense
Nothing is as pure, as concentrated
As the feeling I get
When you touch my lips
When you lose your guard
When you protest beautiful
To my overwhelming no
When three words don’t even begin
To…

View On WordPress

Poetry about the sun

I used to grow away from sunlight
Like the warmth would hurt
My sallow bones
Like those purest beams of gold
Would scorch my open soul
I used to hide away from warmth
Like darkness was a cloak
Against the wear and tear
Of being spoon fed gold
I used to shun myself from brightness
Like cold corners were enough
Under bed sheets not my own
I would close my eyes
Deep in stolen lust
I would shield…

View On WordPress